From my kitchen window i see
this wooden bench
this wooden bench
sleeps with a bottle of rhum and a plastic cover
this wooden bench
sits on its latex coat smoking a cigaret damaging its purple lashes.
this wooden bench
licks icecream from 9 to 12 wearing pleated skirts
this wooden bench
cries rocking on mum's lap
this wooden bench
sulks with his friend complaining about how old they are and how bad youth is.
this wooden bench
slowly winks, until
it dies
Little girl in the black mirro by Jlkl, literature
Literature
Little girl in the black mirro
Little girl in the black mirror:
She's alone and bored
pretty yet pale
smiling, yet sad
She's bored, so bored
the tempreture is rising
its hot, oh so hot
the sweat on her face is dripping
the door bell rings
she slips in her high heeled vintage chanel
she hides with her ball room dress
she runs for the door
On the way her pearl necklace smashes, pearls all over.
She gets even hotter
Its starts to rain; she's crawling for her pearls
The wind bangs the hot windows
The door, she had forgotten, rings again,
she runs for it, opens in a rush to see
a desperate mirror, who's there
melting,
alone,
wet and crying
she looks a
Long and skinny just like herself
Her hands always know where to go
What they want.
What to do.
Often on her thighs to please photographers.
On lucky days covered in diamonds and ruby's to glamour magazine covers
They always have the perfect timing:
To pass through her hair
Move them when she talks
Lay them on my shoulder after a good laugh.
Her hands are smooth and gentle.
Strong and confidant
Annoyingly perfect, but happily sweet.
Near her wrist a small scar
One of the many she has
From when all the jealous girls
In her public school
Pushed her down the stairs
A scar of anger yet,
Like a will to become stronger and bigg
My name is Julian
and i have a pasion
a pasion for which i have respect,
one i can easily detect
and one i know by heart.
It is a very big part.
This pasion is fashion
i love it
i trust it
and i live it.
Theres gucci and pucci
prada and dolce and gebbana
those are italian
now the french , the gods of fashion
theres lanvin and cardin
dior and chanel
balenciaga, lancel.
I have a great futur as a designer
Some people say ill be the better
It might seem to you my life is easy
but it really isnt
people call me gay
and deeply think what they say
some are jelous
and some think im hilarious
my friends never say anything t
Her name is chiara
but i call her my little kikipipi!
We have so much fun together
We laugh about the simplest things ever.
I can tell her anything, she can too
we have akward late night discussions...
She tells me about her boys
I tell her about my girls
were always there for each other
and thats what really counts
a friend whos not available is no friend...
Chiara you are always there for me and
for that
i thank you
Her name is jade,
she is just wow
body shaped like a barbie
and face looking angel
We are best friends
I think im in love
but i shouldnt ! she has a boyfriend a
boyfriend
a really great one
he is just the typical perfect guy, hes a model , hes kind romantic
I am dead jelous of him because , hes got every thing
But he is jelous of me , because ive got jades atttention
she keeps my messages and not his
shes got my fotos in her room and not his
a while ago , i made there couple explode
i felt soo bad , now there back together..
You might loose yourself in this muddle of words
but its normal, i am too...
His name is John
Mine is Julian
Hers Jade
and this is when the J's all meet up ;)
k k kidding serious now!
He thinks im just her friend
but im not.
He tells about how much he loves
her, i do more.I prtend her messages make
no effect on me but they do
He loves her too , she loves him back , i love her too
but what should i do?
hes a great guy she a great gal
they are made for eacher,
I dont want to break them up, buti want her too...
This feeling inside , it has no name
its not anger nore sadness
there is no reason for it
its just there...
You feel bad with your self
you dont know why , or how
you just do.
You feel bored, and restrained, you really want to speed up the pace
you want to scream and yell and release your feelings
So you do , an it works
theres nothing to say or nothing to hear
your in controll and
the fustration is yours ...
im there holding my scissor with my right hand
i slowly start snapping them near my left hand vaines
the blood starts to dribble down my hand
more and more blood
it runs down my fingers to reach my fingertip
and then it forms , the most beautiful
perfect , drop of bright red
blood.
My hands are shaking , the more they shake the more the drops fall on my legs
i look at my self in the mirror
and cut even deeper
i cry
and i cry
the floor is flooded with blooded tears
my body starts to shake
i collapse on the horrors of my life
all that counts , is my past on the floor
all i can do is cry and wonder why...
I watched you across the playground
My knight in shining armour
Ofcourse you didn't know who I was
I pulled my hair out of it's ponytail
and applied my new gloss
onto my lips
that needed your kiss.
That's when you saw me for the first time
I saw you smile at me
I had been waiting so long for this..
so long..
I smiled back
shyly.
The girl behind me ran up to you.
Fool I screamed at myself when I got home
Who would want you
With your frizzy hair
and your great big nose
I went crazy in my room
I threw myself about in pain
All for you
My secret love
My healthy novacaine.